my_lovely_life____haha

waste

happiness is wasted everyday....

People who are happy have no idea how lucky they are

People who are good at something, people who have a passion, people who have happiness, people who have ppl that love them, people who are smart, people who are skinny,

soooo many people have no idea how lucky they are (even me)

but i feel that have none of the stated above... it's hard to explain

the 2 things that bother me the most I CAN'T CHANGE (4 things if you include my hair and school)


i try really hard to find the sunnyside of things... i hate it when people are so negative


but what i've come to realize is I'm everything i hate

i USED TO BE: good at what i did, smart, happy, thinner, felt loved

now: i'm horrible at what i do, my brain has gone down a garbage desposal, i'm fat ( i hate to say it... but i've never seriously been fat until i moved up here and gained this weight), i feel just ridiculed and judged and put down




even thought i hate it and think it's soooo stupid and i am soooo totally against...{sometimes i think that it would be nice if i had the will power to be anorexic, bulimic, and over exercise}




i'm so scared to go home.... the things people are going to say about me are going to be horrible
nothing positive will be said about me..... NOTHING
it's no wonder i never feel good enough ( well actually i'm not... but it all stems from this)







hopeless

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 3:13 AM