....
I am completely over absolutely everything in my life.
I have spent the past 3 hours working on a myspace layout that doesn't work.
wtf
am i serious.
I hate everything.
I am completely discontent.
NOTHING is ok.
absolute everything in my life is wrong.
I sit at school and do nothing.
wow.
for a degree I won't use.
I have NO money.
I am about to graduate and work 2 full time jobs at shitty places like a water park & some retail store.
wow.
I took out a massive loan to go to school and educate and better myself....
but instead I have
wasted
2 years of my life.
so that I can do something I could have done straight out of high school and NOT be in debt.
wow I'm so smart.
is it ok to hate everything?
is it ok to hate everything about yourself?
is it ok to hate everything about your life?
is it ok?
nothing is ok!
I'm out of hope
I'm out of luck
I'm out of life
I'm out of time
I'm out of patience
any little thing that makes me happy... won't be apart of my life anytime soon. If ever.
i won't be able to go anywhere, do anything.
I can barely eat.
I mean my fat ass probably shouldn't but.
i hate everything.... about me.
i regret everything.
not one choice in my life was the right.
just mistakes.
enough of this:
good things come to those who wait
what goes around comes around
what you do comes back to you
BULL SHIT.
wrong. never. NO WAY.
some people are just lucky... and get everything. &
some people are just unlucky...
and nothing will change that.
call me emo or depressed... i could careless.
now that I have a new attitude I realize nothing is right.
not one thing in my life is right.
I'm sooooo sick of wanting things I can't have.
I'm sooooo sick of thinking things will work out.... when they won't
I'm sooooo sick of kidding myself.
I kid myself about everything.
I'll never be good enough.
good enough at anything.
school lies to you.
your effort means SHIT.
fuck being optimistic ... it just sits you up for let down.
I'm soooo sick of feeling like something's missing.
I'll never find it.
I've felt like this for over 2 years.
miss people who just up a forgot about me or treated me like shit.
what they hell.
why would I want them in my life.
everything is total bullshit.
i try to be happy.
but in the back of my mind.... it's seriously so very sad.
my whole life is a joke.
too bad it wasn't a funny joke.
I have nothing let.
please save me.
I need something.
posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 2:29 PM
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