my_lovely_life____haha

giving up on....this that is wasting my time and thoughts

Well I have deciced to give up. I said before that I had given up, when actually I hadn't; so now I do really do believe that I shall give up'tis the only option. So sad right now...should be sleeping but instead I'm up trying to forget and give up. This is much easier said than done. I waste too much time and too many thoughts like this. I never have been.... so never will be... no point in wasting time in this short life of mine.

What I'm feeling (these are lyrics but not the whole songs just the lyrics that sum up these horrible feelings)

I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside

I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

It seems like my world's falling apart, yeah
Why is everything so hard?
I don't think I can deal with the things you said
It just won't go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I worry, I wonder all the time why worry
It's killing me, forget about it

when i look in your eyes
and i still feel the same
i know it's hopeless
when i look to the sky
and the stars spell out your name
i know it's hopeles
samnesia, really need ya
i wanna lose my mind
in a place that i won't find
forgetting is hardwhen you're the only one
that made things easy
you're the only one that eases me
i remember the times
when my shoulder held your head
and i would wonder
how did they find
such a perfect fit
oh how i wondered(i never wanted to take you home
amnesia, really need ya
i wanna lose my mind
in a place that i won't find
so call me now
you know that you want to
i need to hear your voice
to talk me back into existence

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 2:11 AM