my_lovely_life____haha

dec 25 06

i'm lonely.

i'm so used to having that one person you do everything with.
i've always had that best friend who went through everything with you.

i miss it.
all my "best" friends are now in very serious relationships,&/or work, &/or have school...
hanging out with me is a rareatity.
i'm not even back burner... i'm not on the stove.

i guess i never thought about how the older you get more your relationships change.

i feel like i do everything by myself.
if i didn't live with 2 of my friends i think i'd almost see no one.

i hate going to sleep by myself.

i'm lonely. so .....
my family drives me nuts but it's slowly dwindling away.
what will i have when they are gone.

i'm am really beginning to realize. i really am going to grow old lonely & bitter.
yes i know my out look on marriage & kids is not quite the norm.
but i guess i thought i'd have people around me.
but they are too busy being the norm.

after everyone starts to grow up, get careers, homes, married, families
what am i going to be doing?
living alone?
while addicted to shopping, coffee, and booze?

idk
i want someone to talk too.

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 1:07 AM