my_lovely_life____haha

theres nothing after this.
I'm ruining everything for something i don't like.

I'm not strong enough and all I'm doing is pushing everyone away.
I never talk my family.... friends.... those come on good days.

I don't want to be bitchy and I don't want to be moody.

i think things are broken beyond repair.

nothing & no one.

sorry.
sorry i never call
sorry i'm never happy
sorry i'm always mean.


i've done nothing but fucked up my own life.
I need help.

help with everything.

i just need to know that no matter what happens that there is still someone who cares.

but so how i think there isn't.

I'm too needy.
i fuck everything up.


i don't talk to anyone i know.... except for my roommates and they are sick of me. I would be too. i cry too much and need too much. I'm always crying & up set. I'm always mean.
I talk to dana every once and while.

i should be a hermit. that way no one has to deal with me.

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 11:39 PM