my_lovely_life____haha

aug 45th 12:52am

lonely.

i miss fun group events.
i stick out like a sore thumb with all my friends.

it's sad.

well rounded is supposed to be a good thing.
maybe I'm too well rounded?

I feel like such a tag-a-long.
I get invited, but I go knowing that I won't like it, or be into it, or have no clue what's going on.

i'm happy & love my friends.

i do nothing.
the only thing i do is shop.
i spend my time on nothing.

well I'm not going to waste my time going on & on with this topic.

it's just such a werid feeling to be surounded by people you like & feel so lost & left out all at the same time.

sigh.

I'm really lonely.
oh

and i hate that just b/c i'm single ... that makes me the punch line of every joke.
every stupid ugly goofy guy that walks by... "hey there you go"

hahaha funny NOT.

so what if i happen to picky.
whatever.
at least i'm not a dumbass
at least i don't date a dumbass.

i could be like some people & talk about it all the time.
i don't make it a big deal... so other people shouldn't make me being single a big deal.

i have self esteem issues as it it.
gee thanks.

i feel like i bring nothing to the table.
i feel ugly & fat & boring.
so what if no one likes me.
I'm still living.

it's not like i meet lots & lots of new people all the time.
i'm really picky when it come to guys i like... &
so what if i'm too picky... i can't help i don't like the guys that might like me.
most of them have been drunk anyways.

what a way to help the self esteem right?

losers that are going no where
or drunk guys.
GREAT.

or the occasional guy that's just TOO NICE.

over.

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 12:56 AM