aug 9th
today... i've never felt more lonely.
in the past week or so i've began to realize i have NOTHING in common with my friends.
it makes me sad.
i know everyone is different, but no one likes what i like.
i don't do anything that my friends do.
i'm so lonely.
so lonely.
i want someone to be there for me.
someone to care.
i want someone to keep me company when i have no one else.
i want someone to make me smile.
someone that makes me feel good, ok, safe, happy.
sigh.
but that's so hard to find.
holding on tightly to what i have, but it's all slowy slipping away.
i get so easily discouraged & i oh so easily feel left out.
there's a gap in my life... & it seems to have no way to be filled.
i want someone to keep me company at the most lonely times.
like when you're trying to fall asleep.
when you're up set
when everyone else is busy... or has someone else.
sometimes.. it just feels like there's something wrong with me.
i don't like to complain about being lonely.
i'm not desparate... i want something true.
i can't fake feelings like that.
one of my biggest fears is being alone & more & more every year, month & day i see myself getting closer & closer.
it's weird.
i'm only 20.
i should have many years ahead of me.
so what's so important now?
i don't know.
lonely isn't a good way to feel.
i feel lost.
i miss feeling safe & cared about.
lonely... i feel it more & more each day.
posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 12:17 AM
2 Comments:
i feel the same way. . . im only 1 year older than you, but i feel like my hair should be gray. I have no optimistic or witty saying to make you feel better and, in fact, i dont know if anything will. maybe loneliness is needed to make up the opposite of the people with way too many. maybe there IS a balance that must be kept. i dont really believe that myself, but sometimes it brings me a little comfort. heres to hoping you find something to occupy your mind. *cheers*
i feel the same way. . . im only 1 year older than you, but i feel like my hair should be gray. I have no optimistic or witty saying to make you feel better and, in fact, i dont know if anything will. maybe loneliness is needed to make up the opposite of the people with way too many. maybe there IS a balance that must be kept. i dont really believe that myself, but sometimes it brings me a little comfort. heres to hoping you find something to occupy your mind. *cheers*
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