Tuesday, June 28, 2005

i have become what i hate

Oh dear.
I don't like myself. I used to like me. But not anymore.
I have become mean again.

I'm bitter.

It's sad.

I don't know why I'm mean.

Maybe I'm jealous.

I really have come to realize I am the things I HATE.
It's scary really how I can not like so many things & I am what they are.
So I guess I am what I HATE therefore I HATE me.

I feel gross... I disgust myself.
I guess.

I'm not happy with anything.

I guess I'm stupid. I don't know how I became this.

HOW? How did I let myself get this way.
I'm mean to soooooo many people. and why?

really why? Have they ever really done anything so bad to me?
NO.

So in that case... what's my deal?
I don't know.

I'm just so sad.... lonely... bitter.... cold... wanting what I can't have.
Missing things that never really made me too happy.
Wanting something & I'm not quite sure what that is.
Needing some feeling that I don't have... I'm not too sure what that one is either.

I guess the boredom is getting to me.
But i can't blame all i do on the boredom.

I guess somewhere down the line I learned to hurt before you get hurt.
Somehow I feel that I'm mean so that i feel strong. I think I'm mean so that I don't show my weakness.

I don't know.

I'm lost... and the only thing I'm finding is I'm not liking me or what i have become.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

ok... so like I said. Many t-shirts..... many fonts. Putting the 2 together can be complicated. Especially when you've been looking at fonts ALL DAY!
oh Please comment what text looks the best.

**as before any & all criticism is welcomed & encouraged!


forsaken bridge



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ok... this shirt is way away from finished, It needs TONS of work. This was like my 2nd idea. Woring on this one is time consuming!!!!! but just tell me what you think i should change, what you like, what you don't, any suggestions.... just showing it... b/c it's taking so long to fix




side mirror



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font 4



white shirt red splat



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black shirt white splat



font 1



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white shirt black splat



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font 5


tree



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ps thanks for the help!

ok. So I've been super busy making t-shirt designs for my internship. I've made like 16ish different ideas for shirts. Now the BIG question is what FONT???? i've been scrolling through font after font after font looking for good ones. So for every shirt I've gone through and picked 3 of 4 fonts that might look good. OK so this has been taking me a long while... here are some of the shirt ideas with their numerous fonts. Comment on what font you think looks good on each one. There are plenty more to come later. Now I'm off to shower... then more t-shirts, buttons, and stickers.

***PLEASE comment on the fonts. Also any & all criticism is welcomed & encouraged!!!!!!!***


Forsaken Hand



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font 2



font 3



font 4



Forsaken shirt # 2



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Forsaken shirt 3



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Series shirt 1

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Series shirt 2



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ps.... I started with the worst ones first... I'm saving the better ones for later

Sunday, June 12, 2005

HOWDY GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Hey what's up? I got my 3rd tattoo guys!!!! & my eye brow pierced!
just thout i would share!

how is every one?

FANTABULOUS I HOPE!!!!!!

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

hey! so yeah I'm sitting at my parents house waiting on my clothes to dry.
It's kinda boring here
it's kinda sad here too.

One of my bestest friends ever just did like a 180 change in like the time span of a week. it makes me sad. oh well people change I can get over it.

I miss cory and brent... they are my family. I don't know I would do without them. It makes me realize that in a year things are going to be super hard if they aren't around.. i'll have to start all over again.
((NOT THINKING ABOUT IT NOW)) IT'S TOOOO SCARY!

My internship is cool
I have an ass load of work to do... I need to me working on it now, but I'm a whole state away!

well now isn't this a change a pace. I'm going to deal with things. I'm going to try to deal with them better than I have been. So yay from me.
And I'm bloging more.. & about normal things yay!