my_lovely_life____haha

what happens when you leave you for christmas break and I have a keys to your apt!

CLICK HERE THIS IS SOOOOO FUNNY

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 1:45 AM 3 comments

"SIGH" ..... things in Rock Hill have changed so much. It's sooooo sad. :*( It really makes me sad. I don't really think anyone else here cares but I do. I knew leaving would change things but not this much.

Today one of the days I was looking forward too soooooo much....was SHIT. Ummm so yeah it's 8:50 on a friday night and here I sit alone and sad. What is this. I knew things would change... and I'm not scared of change... but I'm losing sight in the point of coming home.(besides family.. and a few friends... but hey since this is rock hill.. theres nothing to do... so why bother) one day in one another's company shall suffice from now on.

I'm really beginning to realize that I will always be alone... i see it coming. Not that I don't have some really great friends... but with nothing to do we find ourselves not doing anything, so therefore we don't hang out... and when we do it's to do nothing...so yes one day every once in a while shall suffice.

I feel I'm wasting my youth away. Going to bed at 7 to 9 pm sucks major ass... I'm 18 years old and have the life of a my 76 year old grandma... except she find things to do when she's with her friends.

my 14 year old brother has more of a life than me I SUCK BIG TIME

Oh well. This is bringing me to tears.....I know that things happen for a reason.....

but "sigh"I thought I would never say this but I'm ready to go back to school... at least it takes up my time.

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 9:08 PM 4 comments

not being able to sleep + being sad and depressed= a list

-drew...... Ha ha Yeah right That was never going to happen
-Johnathan.... oh dear..... yeah That wasn't going to happen either
-Jake... well I was smart enough to know he didn't like me... he just wanted some
-Josh N.... well pretty much the closest thing yet... but he was in love with my friend and doesn't even know who I am now (jack ass)
-Ronnie... well I knew in the back of my mind it wasn't going to last.... 1 maybe 2 weeks... then after prom sometime later.... uh nothing happened there
-Ryan... yeah maybe should've pursued that a little more... but yeah it never happened
-Brian... shit.... I was just really drunk.. & he was desperate.. nothing else said there
-Brandon... he was really drunk, I was really lonely, 2 mistakes and in 1 week tisk tisk
-The guy from K B Toys(I don't remember his name)... yeah that lasted a week. It was going no where mutual on both ends
-Josh G... HUHHH well that lasted maybe a month... he just quit calling , fell off the face of the earth... I don't even know if still he exists. that's what i get for letting my guard down.... i think I was better the way I was.. ((Not giving any guy the time of day for fear of getting hurt))


UMMMMM ..... as far as I can tell there's something wrong here....... (ME).
Oh dear not that many people read this or anyone cares.... but it helps to get this all out
I can't sleep and this is what came about b/c of it!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 1:56 AM 2 comments

Well...........I believe I'm leaving

I think I'm going home today! YAY! Well I was going to wait till tues b/c I didn't want my friend to be up here by himself for sooo looong, but I'm feeling the need to leave today. I'm all by myself feeling lonely and depressed with nothing to do. I know that if I go home I will have lots to do and no time to feel sad or depressed. Cory left for LA today and Brent took him to the airport and then ventured to Rock Hill leaving me by myself all day. Not that I can't be by myself or I need them around all the time, but I find myself wondering why not just leave now. You don't have to work, you'll have more time to spend with your friends and family.... and why lay around all day and be sad when you can go see friendly faces and familiar things??????? I really don't want to leave Brent up here by himself, but he's not here today.... and tomorrow he won't be by himself but... I'll leave tues. So in actualality I'm only helping him out by a day. B/c I have no idea when he is coming back today. ummmmm I'm pondering this idea. It will be a while before I actually leave I need to shower pack and clean up.

************************************************************************
Oh yeah since I'm going to The BIG Rock Thrill I most likely wont be on the internet. I'll take my lap top, but I can't get on the internet at my house b/c they switched to a cable modem. And the desktop they just bought is crazy... I thinks it's very sick....a virus. Oh well!
************************************************************************
I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
***********************************************************************
PLEASE COMMENT ON IF YOU THINK I SHOULD LEAVE OR NOT! I'LL BE HERE PACKING AND SUCH.....I'M NOT SURE IF I'LL LEAVE YET!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 11:51 AM 3 comments

Does anyone know what these kind of glasses are called! I want some soooooo bad and have no idea where to find them. HELP ANYONE KNOW WHAT THEY ARE CALLED OR WHERE TO GET THEM

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 1:49 AM 0 comments

Well I was watching TV and this guy had his lip pierced! This reminded me how SEXY it is!
I think guys that have they're lips pierced are SOOOOOO SEXY! It's so HOT! "Sigh" omg! ummmmmmmmm So hot!!!!!!!!!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 1:12 AM 0 comments

well......I thought I'd mix it up a little bit!

Your positive traits:

You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring.
Sweetness - you're the most romantic person your parnter has ever met.
You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with.

Your negative traits:

You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood.
It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should.
You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest.

Your ideal partner:

Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreams
Is a total romantic, with an artistic or creative side
Loves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways

Your dating style:
Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners.

Your seduction style:

Fearless - you try what your parnter suggests, no matter how unusual.
Loving. You'll take your pleasure second, if necessary.
Internal. A lot of your enjoyment takes place within your head.

Tips for the future:

Be more realistic. Your romantic ideal is nice, but it may just not happen.
Let go of your fear of rejection - it's holding you back from being with your true love.
Open yourself up to a new love. The person you think you want make not be the one..


Best color to attract mate: Seafoam green

Best day for a date: Friday

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 8:29 PM 0 comments

these feelings........

I hate these highs and lows, ups and downs. They are killing me.

todays feelings in order
-special/important
-sleepy/sad
-happy/proud
-like i was in hell
-sad
-ok
-blah
-happy
-special
-special/important/"sigh" just happy
-sad/depressed/unimportant
-angry/sad/irritated
-sad/tears coming to my eyes
-smiling/amused
-good

and It's only 10pm....I'm sure there are plenty to come!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 9:49 PM 0 comments

THESE ARE FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 9:45 PM 0 comments

ANGER IS PULSING THROUGH MY VEINS!

OMFG! I'M SOOOOOOO FUCKING ANGERY!

~FOR STARTERS.....MY FUCKING READING TEACHER LOST MY PROJECT..... GREAT NOW I'M GOING TO GET A BAD GRADE. WELL I GUESS SINCE THE PROJECT IS NON EXISTANT THEN A ZERO

~AND THE FUCKING SLACKERS IN MY HTML CLASS (THE CLASS I'M SITTING IN RIGHT NOW) GOT THEIR WEBSITES TO THE INTERNET AND I'VE BEEN WORKING ON MINE FOR WEEKS AND CAN'T GET MINE ON IT. THEY WERE AT SCHOOL ALL NIGHT AND FINISHED THIERS LAST NIGHT AND STARTED IT LAST NIGHT! SHITS TO HELL!

OH DEAR!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 2:05 PM 0 comments

WHAT A QUESTION

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 1:01 AM 2 comments

I feel like an OLD FART

It's 9:17 pm and I wish I had went to be at 7:00pm. Omg I'm such an old person! I'm only 18 years old I need to go to be before my grandma does! Oh dear! I don't know what to do with myself. This sucks!

posted by pink_blackbutterfly @ 9:16 PM 0 comments